why bother?

why do i tan...oh because i believe one of these times i'm gonna turn into one of those dark complected good looking people

i wanna swim with dolphins dammit!

i get so jealous everytime i see dolphins on tv and people swimming with them, i mean seriously, they're great. Ok a couple things that bother me tho, i think i'm gonna do this list style.

1. waking up early...no matter how early i go to sleep i hate getting up, hell it doesnt even matter if its early, i just hate waking up, i'm not truely awake til like 2 or 3. Mexico and places where they get up late, eat late, work, then go out til late, are prolly the best places in the world. Appreciate, dont niterhate haha.
2. work sucks. period. well maybe if i didnt hate my job, which hopefully i won't once i'm done with school but i'm so fed up with my job, they keep insistingly scheduling me thursday thru sunday, sure guys i don't want a life outside of work, i wanna work every weekend 1 til 9, i almost rather get up early, and that's a big no according to number one.
3. i hate our president, i like politics, but i can't talk about it, i get too overworked and pissed off and in a bad mood
4. i hate parents, they're all just bitches, yea they're prolly right about a lot of things, but there is so many different ways they could take on things and deal with it differently without bein a bitch, like for instance my dad throwing in my face that once a kid becomes 18, this isn't their home anymore, they just stay here for the time being til they move out, well here's a big fuck you to you
5. bills bill bills...jay z and who was it that short lil guy who went with janet jackson when they said money ain't a thing, yea, fuck you too
6. boys...nuff said, til i find a good guy for myself, all boys will be looked apon the same way

friends

i thought about this b4...and someone else inspired me to..this is one of my favs

my bro

my bro

So yea Imagine that kid in the middle. He's my brother. haha just kidding sorry if it's your brother whoever is reading. But yea on my way home yesterday from class, I saw a guy or kid, I have no idea how old he was, but he was jogging, and he looked like him and when he ran, he kicked his back legs up to the outside, ya know the right leg goes out to the right and left to the left. I really thought I was gonna watch him slip and fall on the stones. I woke up this morning to real estate agents and potential buyers in my face, and a home inspector, ya know to make sure the house doesnt have anything seriously wrong with it. Nope, nothing wrong, except for Mrs. Brown who lives in the attic, really she is no big deal. I'm kind of sad about leaving this house,

i hate school i hate school i hate school i hate school and i really hate public speaking, i dread it, i don't wanna go, i wish i had a clone that could go. On a good note tho i got my new insurance rates for the next 6 months, 136 a month...thanks progressive, it's dropped over 100 dollars a month since a year ago whoop whoop. Drank my favorite drink last nite, fruit punch gatorade and bankers club vodka. Fuckin great. Homework to be done.

skoo

I start class tomorrow finally, let the countdown begin to hopefully finishing up school once and for all. Public speaking 8am, ooooh shit.

Had thee best time in new york yesterday. I left about 6 somethin here hoping to get there before 9...was that ever a bad guess. First ran into really bad traffic, 20 miles from here on 80 then again going onto the george washington bridge. I finally arrived about 11, lemme tell ya not good on your bladder, I was seriously considering using my mcdonalds cup and i would've if i knew how to do it. So 5 mins after I was there at my friends, we got a taxi and headed out, about 4 alabama slammers, 2 sex on the beaches and 4 shots of soco and lime, i was literally wasted. I think its great I'm so niave, people amaze me especially drunk people who live in the city. We made friends with some girl from new jersey. Now i've met people from there in college, but their voice was never as annoying as hers was. We did impressions of her all day today. Then my friend introduced me to her friend Patrick. The guy pulled up in his orange van/ice cream truck thing. I was really ticked at myself for not bringing my camera, because a picture of him would be worth a million words or however the hell that goes. Patrick I guess works for mud coffee or whatever. The guy is a riot, he really made my night. We left Mo's carribean then went to a place called iggy's and did karyoke.."pour some sugar on me". We then had fun in the taxi, we heard a good song and b4 i knew it, me, my friend and the taxi driver were all singing. I don't remember paying for the taxi...hopefully I did, if not, thanks man. Today though was hell. Hungover as fuck. I could've even drive home, my friend came home too, so while stuck in damn traffic again, we did a 180 chinese fire drill and switched, passed out and woke up pulling into my driveway. We'll be back nyc, dont you worry, We met nice ppl who work at 420 and we'll be there again next month.

Here's a brick in the window for ya sayin fuck u.

Going to visit Dee tonight in Harlem, but you may very well be able to find us at Mo's Carribean on the upper East Side. But please don't steal my bag, thanks.

I really do think I have the ability of forecasting, now I'm a lil weary about what I post, my last post's title of my friends number (of course aterisked out for her privacy) from her text to me on aol about what she was doing at the moment. So today I get a phone call from some 217 area code number I think...I didnt pick up, I'm shady. Well after listening to my voicemail i found out it was her. She called again, I answered to hear her go off how someone stole her bag at the gym which had her cell phone and keys in it. The joys of Harlem. I could leave 50 bucks lay out in my car with the doors unlocked and not even 2nd guess about leaving my car unlocked here. Some things are just better at home in the country. Yesterday after the construction guys were pouring the cement for our foundation at our new house, the cement truck broke down and needed to be towed. ..now I believe in bad omens and getting jinxed but this can't be good. The house that had stood they're b4 we tore it down was a really old farmhouse that my grandparents had once lived in and then after they built their new home, they rented it out and I still believe to this day, that, that home was haunted. Many strange things happened there and guy who grew up in the house, yea I know him, small town, he farms the land that my gram owns, well he even told me that him and his sister's thought it was and he's in his 50's so yea anyways, I'm pretty convinced that, whatever was there, is prolly pissed off we tore their house down and making havoc to the land to produce something nice. I will let everyone know how it goes once we move in, if we get in and if i survive long enough to post about it. Before the old house was tore down me and my friend went in and walked around with my electromagnetic detector thing..i bought it off ebay. So we got sick of holding the button around while we walked, close to each other very close to each other, have u know it, the power had been cut off from the house, so yea we're like this sucks, we need somethin to fit in the button pusher downer slot thing, and we both conclude a dime would be nice size, we look around, look around some more, check our pockets, then what do we spot laying all by itself on the bar, a nice dime. weeird. nothing went off wierd on my meter but that doesnt prove anything. I've told my family about the theory of the ghosts being pissed off. They laugh. We'll see who gets the last laugh

+1570412****: Ydb but its hard to sef on my fone. . . im in an arabic club

Why is itWhy is it in the supposed great US, that no matter what you're living situation, no matter if your parents pay for your college or not, that your financial aid goes by their income. Seriously, fuckin gay. I'm getting like no money and gonna be in debt for like ever for a 2 year program. Last night before I went to bed I tried to post, forgot to copy my post and all of a sudden blogger decided to stop working. Thanks buddy. Probably better though, it was a long post going on a rant about our asshole president. So yea I got about half of my loans signed and ready today, then I had to take a placement test, wasn't too bad, I think my grammar could use some brushing up on. I have to work the next this weekend including today, not fun. I hate working the weekend, I might go up to NY on sunday night, depends how tired I am and if I go out Saturday night. I'm def going out tonight, and I really don't feel like going to work. I hate fridays there, and I hate how everyone thinks they MUST eat fish Friday, no matter what religion the follow, and in lent and out of lent. Go eat a salad somewhere, it's better for you.

100 things

II love the idea of this, I only hope i can finish it. Here goes...

1. I hate spiders
2. I don't hate bugs and I can touch them but they can't touch me
3. I played softball for 13 years
4. I got kicked off my softball team when i was sr. and when i was a captian because i violated the 3 only tardie rule
5. I'm a democrat faithfully
6. I hate my job
7. I get annoyed easily
8. I've never been truely in love:o(
9. I hardly read but i love to
10. I procrastinate alot
11. I have a black civic
12. I am not confident but try not to show it?
13. I have one sister
14. I have only lived at 2 different places that are only 10 miles apart.
15. My town is backwards
16. I live in a quiet development.
17. My parents have only left me the house alone twice for a period of more than one day
18. The first time, the house got trashed and i put a hole in the wall and tried saying I did it all
19. My middle name is Nichole, yes with an H and yes my 2nd grade teacher and my mom got in a argument over it
20. I can go tanning everyday for a month and look like i've only been out in the sun for a day
21. I once threw up right beside my boyfriends desk in 6th grade...he broke up with me
22. I hate waiting
23. My whole family is short, my dad is the tallest at 5'5''
24. I got my tongue pierced the first day i went to the beach the other year
25. I took it out last month, a lil over 2 years later.
26. I got my nipples pierced this past year, I would've only got one but I already paid for both
27. I like lionshead and blacklabel beer, both only 10.60 a case
28. I can tell my bestfriend anything, i trust her the most
29. I like to get drunk
30. I wish I was more upspoken
31. I wish I was on 91
32. I loved the show hey dude when i was younger and the cartoon express on usa
33. I have lots of friends who turn into rappers when they get drunk
34. I wear a size 9 in womens shoes
35. I dont wear glasses
36. I like video games
37. I always wanted a sandbox and a treehouse when I was younger, my kids will have both
38. I try to be a ghost hunter, I've even bought ghost hunting items off ebay
39. I have two dogs, poochie(german shepherd/collie),tessa(black lab), about 30 goldfish in an outside pond, and 2 frogs who remain nameless for some odd reason but tonight they will be named.
40. I want a turtle
41. I was almost bit by snapping turtle
42. I will have chickens and ducks when our new house is built
43. My grandparents used to have ducks, chickens, quail, peacocks, goats, llamas, cows, turkeys, pigs, They got rid of them all when my pap died
44. I love ham pot pie and Chicken and Waffles/biscuits
45. My favorite pie is apple
46. I love grapes, seedless
47. I think all girls I don't know at parties are bitches once i become drunk
48. I suck at beer pong til I get really drunk
49. I like to drive my mom's black yukon around because I always see famous ppl on tv riding in them
50. I lie to my parents a lot, for no reason at all
51. I have big boobs and wish I was about a cup size lower
52. I like to go fishing but rarely do
53. I think faster than I write/type
54. I like owls, i will have a domesticated one someday
55. I'm very supersitious, I always knock on wood
56. I lost my best friend's von dutch hat, it was silver and maroon, I haven't been able to find the same kind of hat to this day
57. I love feather pillows
58. I want to fall in love
59. Sometimes I think I have esp with certian people
60. Whenever someone calls and I answer the phone, my mom will ask who it was and I say "your mom" and she takes me seriously and calls my gram
61. I'm late a lot
62. I overthink a lot
63. I take things to heart
64. I never go to bed before 2 unless it's a nap
65. I started liking the braves because that was my teeball team's name and we wont the championship
66. I have "bedroom eyes" or 'sleepy eyes"
67. I used to hate eggs and lettuce, now I eat over medium eggs and lettuce on hoagies or salad but i like my burgers with cheese only
68. I hate onions and peppers, i will pick them out piece by piece and make a very strange face if i miss one
69. My mom would never order me a plain cheeseburger happy meal, my burger would get cold by the time i got to eat it
70. I don't dance unless I'm drunk, then i become mtv grind
71. I scored a 1010 on my sat's
72. I used to walk around the track at highschool football games when I was younger probably 20 times each game, that was the thing to do
72. I'm irish/italian/german...so far thats all i know of for sure
73. Middleswarth Chips are the best chips ever, look em up
74. When I was in jr high i was obsessed with boybands, I even lost friends over boyband drama
75. I love white chocolate
76. Teeth are very important to me on guys
77. I've never went skiing or snowboarding but I love to go sledding
78. I've never been on a plane
79. The friday the 13th ninendo game scared me a lot
80. I always set my nintendo option to play on channel 4 so if I have turned it off I would never have to see or hear Unsolved mysteries on channel 3
81. I used to have nightmares about Freddy Krueger
82. But I like horror movies
83. I used to fight with anyone at my house when i was younger over what color sippee cup i got, i always wanted red or blue
84. Thanks to annoying seatbelt reminders, I always wear my seatbelt
85. The only time I've ever been in trouble with cops is a speeding ticket and my underage drinking citation
86. The farthest I've ever been from PA is va beach, or the very west of ohio
87. I hate the sound of birds chirping really early in the morning when you haven't gone to bed yet
88. I'm messy but not dirty
89. I have a hard time parting with things
90. I think Knoebel's is the best place on earth, even though i hate rollercoasters
91. I used to have a huge crush on my science teacher in 8th grade, I wonder if he's divorced yet.
92. I like to go out but I like to be a homebody sometimes
93. I think i suffer from that depression when you dont get enough light
94. My parents call me a vampire because sometimes I don't go out anywhere til night
95. I love evenings before the sun sets or while the sun is setting
96. I drink bankers club vodka and fruit punch gatorade together in big 32 oz cups when i go to field parties
97. I can't pick an all time favorite movie but Little Monsters with Fred Savage and Howie Mandell ranks pretty high
98. I graduated in 2002
99. My sister takes very long showers and it bothers me greatly
100. I can't stand fake people, being real, however real you are is great, no matter how you act as long as it's real

whewwww with a whistle sound in the middle btw there is two 72's, fuck it

Well it's 7 right now and a lil after, and I'm watching my team the braves lose horribly to the Marlins 9-0 and it's the bottom of the 8th, not such a good start to their season and to John Smoltz's season as a starter again. Oh well, it's just the first game jitters...I guess. But as I've been watchin the game, I've been looking through blogs and came across someone calling their friends "lovelies", now first of all, where did this word come from, I've seen this in many people's infos or away messages on aol. One by one more people started using this word for their girlfriends. I think it's dumb, or maybe it's because most of my friends are guys except for my best friend and maybe a few other girls I hang out with sometimes, but still, there's nothing worst than using what's cool, copying, posing or whatever you may call it. But it bothers me greatly. So for all of you copies of other people, you're fucking gay, sorry to whom of you might be gay. I have a gay boss, and I feel bad when I use that word around him, but I really just use it instead of the word stupid moron, or to some extent of that. And now I'm on my 4th black label. And now I'm yelling at the tv and my ps2 because all of a sudden it won't read my games, and so you know sony, I'm switching to x-box, fuckers. No more memory cards, no more stupid controller, no more poor graphics. Hope ps3 is better. Now I have to go to walmart after this game to purchase motor oil and a filter for my Honda. Used to have a jetta, but the transmission went out, so don't buy a vw in the 90's, no good, or a 90's dodge. Oldsmobile treated me well, and so has my Honda.

no soup

I wanted to move this blog from myspace to here so I'm gonna do it because it was a good vent for me, and maybe someone else has my problem too.

u know what i hate, is when customers come in to my work and say oh u sound sick, well wouldnt u sound hoarse too after working 7-8 hours, telling every table 6 or 7 diff specials, then telling them what kind of drinks we have, then telling them our 4 potatoes of the day, then usually our 3 vegetables of the day, then the final choice being apple sauce, cole slaw or pickled cabbage, and not one person ever listens the first time so i have to repeat it to every single person at the table, then ppl have the nerve to be like oh u sound bad, r u gettin sick, no fuckers i had a cold a month ago but i cant ever get better cuz i strain my fuckin voice and throat cuz ur lazy bastards who cant shut the fuck up for 3 mins to listen to me, fuckin niggers

Hate it or Love it

Looked at my blog and discovered some comments, which made my day haha. How easily amused I can get it. I also saw pictures of someone's cat which made me wanna post a picture about mine. Yea so that's milo, the story about Milo goes like this. A few years ago, my sister was all about the movie milo and otis, watched it day and nite, everyday, even would jump around and act like she was a dog and cat sometimes, til she saw a cat that looked like milo and had to have it. Mom agreed but only to the terms, it was an outside cat, so the cat was brought home, and mysteriously vanished the next day. Now my sister was devastated, so a trip to the spca was in order, when there, she was allowed to pick out any cat, so she picked the smallest, most sickest looking cat. Cat was brought home. Cat wouldnt eat. Cat just layed there. Cat needed fed by hand with a dropper. So we brought Milo number 2 back to life basically instead of giving up on her. Milo number 2 grew up to be a bitch. You can only take so much of a cat's bitchiness(growling like a dog, hissing at your company, attacking you as you walk by) Milo now lives on a farm where all milos belong. :o) Now some time, I'll post about the story of Tessa, she's a black lab and a pig.

owls 

hoot

So I just started fuckin around with Blogger Bot tonight and it's a bitch, why do people make things more difficult than need be, but it does have a neat collage tool, beat that photoshop. Do you ever wonder what the road runner says when they beep him out??? Because I do, and i really hate Trix commercials because the kids are really stingy and won't share, hmm what else do i hate seeing...hmmmm i'll think of something later. I do know something I like though, and thats my owls. k :o)

back in black duhhh duh duh duh

First of all, I would like to see some comments, even just one, to see if anyone reads this thing, or if the counter at the bottom of the page is just me checking my counter when i get on to blog...so really, leave me something, anything really.

Anyways, I got my nervous system reset tonight, hopefully. A guy who comes in to my work, had me do this concentration, tapping my pressure points, and humming thing. So that I can overcome my nervous problem when I have to speak outloud in public in front of a lot of people since I have public speaking this semester. I'm that kind of person who gets up, forgets my words, stutters, shakes, sounds like an ass. Real cool feeling lemme tell ya. Also I got my room cleaned tonight for 5 dollars again, amazing what 11 year olds will do for money. To her, that's probably like 100 dollars. After that, i stopped at the bar, picked up 2 sixers and then began playing halo 2, again...call me a nerd, i don't care, i only wish i was better at it.

BTW: If anyone has the real world san diego recorded or burnt onto dvd's i'd really like to buy them. Really.

Ham & Dandelion

Checked out my internet history and realized my 11 year old sister signed up at Blogger...

lotz about me!
Hi everybody this is my website a little about me is that i got lotz of friends and you can see most of them in another link. I have brown and blonde hair and i am short. I am not the smartest person but I am not dum either. I 'm in softball, basketball, and I play some soccer.

Ok...brown and blonde hair would be dirty blonde, sure you're not dum, and i've never seen you play basketball or soccer ever. Ok enough of about the 6th grader, who just so happened to steal all my easter candy. Bitch. So it's 1:32AM and i'm a little confused about when you're supposed to turn your clocks ahead, I mean they change at 1 or 2 i forget, but why, why not make it like at midnight or 11, or 10, do they expect people to stay up late to change, and why do we even do it in the beginning. Tomorrow I have to work at 10 which will really feel like 9, cuz it is really 9, and I use my cellphone as my alarm and fuck if I can trust it, so it sets itself an hour ahead, so when I wake up, I'm gonna freak out, think I overslept and run out to the kitchen to see what time the stove says. So yeah, screw you day light savings time, for making a shitty sunday for me but thank god, no ham and dandelion tomorrow, how can people eat that shit....seeerrriioousssly.